You guys are awesome! Thanks so much for your support and words of encouragement. My relationship with my therapist did not just happen overnight, or in just a few months. It has taken quite a while to get to this point.

Now that I see just how great therapy can be, I wonder why in the world I fought it so long! Why didn't I give in months ago and just go with it? Well, that is because therapy is a process. I had to:

(1) Take time to get to know her

(2) Learn to trust her

(3) Accept that it was okay for me to be in therapy

(4) Feel comfortable enough to be transparent with her

(5) Give myself permission to show my emotions with her

(6) Work on issues that I didn't even know I had!

(7) Forgive myself for things that I really didn't have any control over

(8) Fall in love with my therapy time and embrace all that it offers me!
Including an intimate relationship with her. Yes, I said it. I can accept
that I have feelings for her and it is OKAY!

(9) Be willing to share with her my most embarrassing things!

This doesn't mean that I won't come on here and say something like, "I hate therapy and I am never going back!". Those times will still come. Usually because we have hit on an emotion that I am not wanting to explore! I know that I will feel so much better if I just "do it" and allow myself to "go with the emotion" and work through it.