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Originally Posted by treehouse
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Wow, that sounds SO hard, and like it brought up a LOT of big feelings for you.
I know that "I hate therapy" feeling. Usually, I drag myself to see T, tell him I hate therapy, and we go from there. Because I don't ALWAYS hate it, and it's hard to remember that when it feels so so awful.
Do you HAVE to do group? Do you feel like you are benefiting from it? It sounds so stressful. 
Breathe. It won't feel this bad forever.
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The idea of facing T right now just makes me sick to my stomach - I mean, to the point of vomiting. It's that bad.
But....I won't make any rash decisions right now. I see T on Thursday, and I have until 2 PM tomorrow to cancel.
And no, I don't have to go to group. Although I've learned a lot from being in group, I don't have the confidence in the members of the group or with the type of group that it is, to help me work through my issues. And I'm starting to feel worse going to group than better. So, I'm considering ending it....Of course, I know T. He would say that when I feel the worst about group/therapy is when tough issues are being addressed, and ultimately a lot of growth and learning comes out of it if you stick with it.
But I just find it to be pure torture right now. I mean, seriously, how many can imagine sharing a room with several other clients of YOUR T, sharing intimate details of their lives? I don't want to have to stomach that. I really don't.