Im doing it outpatient. Still have memory. And a MASSIVE headache.

Im going to vent here too, because the freind who had a hand in me getting in this shape so as not to hurt them in a project which proved misguided has added the insult to the injury (of nonrecognition of my caring) of saying "stay away if you don't feel well"

I wrote myself a note before I went that defines what trust means and what love means and now I have learned that they do not HAVE to be inseparable. I love my friend still- but sure don't trust him. I'm learning about putting up some bpundaries of my own.

Next shock is monday. I'll be back.