Hi Everyone,
Thanks for asking how I am doing. Not too much of an update. I talked to t and he told me to make an appointment to talk to him about it all. He only offered me Friday at 4. I accepted but told him that seemed like a really long time to keep safe. (no threats on my behalf) I think he got it because then today he emailed and said that the 4pm appointment was available. (What happened?!?)

What I think happened is that he didn't give me the appointments last week and this week as a consequence to my behaviors of cancelling. Can't blame him. So anyway I was all psyched up to get through til friday and then all of a sudden, "oh come in at 4 today." Just feel like I'm on a roller coaster. I know this was my doing in the first place.

So I went and we talked about the emails and what transpired and he wanted to know what he was missing. He made comments about how detatched I was. We talked about depression, su, sadness. The time went by sooooo slowly. I wouldn't say that things are repaired. We both apologized. I wouldn't say that things are worse either. I have an appointment next tuesday and I guess I'll go but I have no feeling either way about it.