you were courageous today rainbow.
you deserve all the hugs you can get.... your going through the tunnel of grieving so you can rescue the light in the end, you know, who you are, even in grieving times like this is unique and special, i think thats why many therapists like their job....your gonna grow...."" just keep taking it one step at a time, don't run before you learn how to walk or walk before you learn how to crawl"" --- give yourself whatever space and time you need to heal, grieve, process..... overall, GROW....you'll be surprised of the beauty at the end my dear.... good luck to you + a billion hugs!