so am wondering whether to approach the person who messed with me when younger? what good will it do? probably just create more issues than resolve. im not sure im at that stage of being able to deal with it. im not sure of anything at this time.

even with t i cant express myself, feelings and thoughts. so whats the point in continuing this?

im continuously questioning myself, my choices, my actions. i feel unable to know where to go with myself, what to do. i truly feel like wanting to disappear.

how can i stop the images when someone else is trying to be intimate with me?

am i creating more issues for myself attening t? isn't this causing me to question every single thing?

how can i be strong for those who need me to be? i always am, yet i struggle at this time.

how do others not see that i am struggling? why cant i just scream and let everyone know? why cant i be honest for once, tear down the defences and the curtain of strength and mask of happiness and of being in complete control?

i need support, i really feel like i need it right now. where am i going to get that from? how can i not appear like a complete looney-tune? im scared of me, of my life, the future, the past, the present. how will i do this?