I just started a cours ein floristry last week and now I'm thinking it was a terriblemistake.
Yeah, floristry sound fab, doesn't it? But I didn't account for how much hard physical work it is. I asked my teacher yesterday to be frank with me. I asked her if I could cope in the real world of floristry with my disability and all. She said she didn't want to say no, because people with physical disabilities CAN work it out, but I may find it difficult, especially with my chronic pain.

I was a mess that day, having been awake since 3am, and a mess today when I talked to the college counsellor. I'm going to try to stick it out for at least a semester....but now I'm wondering if I've made a huge ridiculous mistake. Maybe I should change to community services. I love helping people. But......I love flowers...I don't know I can't handle this, I try so hard and get nowhere....I can't get a job from my last course, even though I got distinctions, and now this....I'm 32 this year and haven't had a real paying job......ever. I feel so hopeless and unwanted.

ssorry for rambling, Ijust feel like I keep making mistakes.