I'm trying to figure my anger problems out. I had an outburst last night that started with my husband accidentally breaking my keyboard. The anger had nothing to do with the keyboard, or my husband although unfortunately he was the target of my rage. I don't know why at that particular moment all my rage came out but it was weird and scary and awful.

I told him I hated him and I don't. I said some really messed up stuff that I didn't mean and can't take back. I'm not mad at him, I am mad at my life, my past, other people, myself.

And now, I feel awful, and the shame spiral started and I can't fix any of this.