{{{{{{{{{{{{Twilight}}}}}}}}}}} I remember having the very same feelings. There was a time I was Very Angry at God! I still get almost offended at the mention of "guardian angels." But having dealt with my own abuse that has been present throughout my life, I KNOW that God allowed it when I was three for a reason. If I hadn't gone through what I did, I wouldn't be the person I am today.

I am NOT perfect
not always strong
not always wise
not always loving
not always caring
not always empathetic
not always patient, etc.

BUT when I AM all these things, it's because I understand all too well and I understand because I went through the abuse, pain, misunderstanding, abandonment from both my mother and what I though, God. He didn't abandon me and he hasn't abandoned you, either.

Hang tight. It will get better. We're all here to help you through. That's why I'm here.