(((Can't Stop Crying))) - when an abused person opens up and tells their story, it's very painful. Think of the abuser as a bacteria - it invaded you and if left untreated, it festers. When you finally tell, this opens up old wounds and this is a painful process which eventually leads to healing but can seem overwhelming at times.

I agree getting online support can help but you need to do it cautiously. Too much ruminating isn't in your best interest and you might also get triggered sometimes. Most of the work needs to come from your great therapist. You deserve and hopefully will come to claim that lost inner child. You're in my prayers and you're welcome here.