Since my major crazy throwing session, I haven't damaged anything else, but I have wanted to. I can feel the anger in my stomach and then rise up in my chest - it almost takes over.
I did tell my therapist about what I did and about how it scared me. She said we need a safe plan for what I should do if I get that way again. I don't really want to tell her I've felt it again though. It sucks to feel so out of control.
When I was driving my car, I was going just inches away from walls and poles and then moving at the last second, even making the 'BAM' noise as I did it. I knew what I was doing wasn't normal, but I couldn't stop it.
You all are right, it's such an awful feeling. It's comforting, in a way, to hear that other's have experienced this, but I'm sorry that you've had to.
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Originally Posted by justjoanie
I'm here any time you need to talk.
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I may just take you up on this sometime!