Well T is sick :-( I hate that he feels bad.
He emailed me just now to let me know. I was supposed to see him in a few hours.

I was highly triggered due to the stupid news putting on the stuff about military woman being SA and no one listens. Yep - one of my things.
So I wrote T about that last night. He didn't reply but I didn't ask for one.

Today though I was very angry and not well. But- I was going to see T so I was being ok. I did go kick a brick wall for 15 min this AM at work !

Also, my T wrote me on my work email and not the one I use.
I wrote back on my other email that I use and said it was OK about not seeing him but that I was in a lot of pain right now. But no reply.

I am so angry just at life right now and I know it isn't his fault he is sick. But once again work is heck and I really just needed to see him. I feel very not with it now and dissociating. I can't write him more - he is sick and since he wrote me on work email I guess he doesn't even know the other emails are me anyway or something. IDK. In fact, I dont care either now