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Old Feb 16, 2011, 05:14 PM
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righ tnow i don' treally have any faith.it's hard to believe someone's watching out for you when bad things happen to you.

i feel like my pdoc of many yearsg ave up on me. i saw her this morning, and she seemed so distant. and i asked her about an alternative to the ativan that made me so drugged up, adn she just sais there is nothing and that i'm going to have to deal with everything behaviorally. also, usually when things are this bad, she has me come in the following week, and call her to let her know im okay. she gave me an appt in a month. it just seemed liek she just didn't care anymore.

still feel sick to my stomach. forced myself to eat some lunch, that wast hree hours ago, and i still feel like throwing up.

i'm so tired. couldn't sleep last night. now i'm just really really tired.
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As she draws her final breath
Just beyond the door he'll find her
Taking her hand he softly says

For the first time you can open your eyes
And see the world without your sorrow
Where no one knows the pain you left behind
And all the peace you could never find
Is waiting there to hold and keep you
Welcome to the first day of your life

Just open up your eyes as I lay you down tonight
Safe on the other side
No more tears to cry