((((((((((((Rainbow)))))))))))))))

For me, the grieving seems to come in waves. I'll go a while without it, and then it will hit me again for a while. It hurts. Sometimes I can try to name it, but sometimes, I just have to be with it. I have spent sessions just crying on T's couch, with him asking questions, and me not having any idea what the answers were. But even without being able to name it, feeling it, allowing it, and accepting it always, ALWAYS helps me move through it.

The grieving come for a while, and then.....it's like there is a little more space inside. More room to breathe, more quiet, more ability to be present in my life. T and I work on other things, life goes on....and then the grieving comes back and we do it again.

I am in the grieving right now too. I called T tonight and left a message and said "I just feel SAD". I just wanted him to know. Sometimes just naming the feeling: "I feel SAD" helps me honor it and let it be what it is.

((((((((((hugs))))))))) to you