Awhile bck I found out that my mother knew about the sexual abuse that went on between her husband and I which was my step father at the time being also her finding out which I thought was the first time her knowing she didnt kick him out for awhile until he went to jail for drugs a little while after; sighs we've talked about it but it always ended up in confrontation and now I feel betrayed I always have felt that way but i feel so lost and down all the time.......how could she have let this go on and let him stay i jus dnt understand maybe i never will i just want comfort i just wanted her to be the mother i always wanted this is really messing me up