Thank you so much for responding vertebrae

Yeah, I may be reaching the breaking point where I decide to go see a therapist again, I haven't seen one since last semester, and I only went once (and even there he pointed out that I seem more OCD than I thought, but that was his observation of my constant straightening up of papers). I know it will be beneficial, just have to get over the fear of appearing fake or having the therapist tell me nothing is wrong (when I still think something is off).

As for that quote mentioned, that doesn't happen all of the time (since I'm usually listening to music when I'm around people, and I work hard to remain calm), but I understand your concern.

I'll definitely look at the links you gave me, in hopes that I can find enough relevant information and courage to actually get up and go see a therapist as soon as possible. Maybe the fact that a couple people here, and the only therapist I went to, actually mentioned OCD to me without me saying anything about it may be a sign that something is up, as well as the behaviors I have (those listed were the most apparent, but there are also smaller things that don't do much harm, such as not allowing a piece of toilet paper to hang off the roll, or letting the toilet paper to be uneven at the end, those just bug me).

Here's to hoping I find what I need to build up the courage to go see a therapist again, even if it's just to talk about what's going on in my head.

Thank you again for your reply, I really appreciate it

Best to you