Quote:
Originally Posted by colmnach
I doubted I could stop drinking as well. Until I realised I had a major problem with it and forced myself to get help with a Detox Service. It worked. Not for everyone, but it did work. About your other problems, being like a robot or very cold/distant.. seems to me (I could be wrong)-as if you are erecting a 'shield' so that you don't get hurt. Because you have been hurt before? Just guessing here. Just want to try and help, that's all. Hope you find that help.
|
I don't know if it's that. I've been hurt before, of course, but nothing serious. I guess I haven't dared to try to care about anyone other than my family. I have always just been a very guarded person - as long as I can remember.
Often the women I see are shocked and totally turned off by some of my coldness. Most of the the women I meet are from my small social circle at a party or something and I am very sociable w/ a witty sarcastic humor and open to people at first. But, once they try to really get to know me or I feel vulnerable I just totally back away. My bestfriends in the world have no idea about my mom's suicide attempt to put in perspective how guarded I am. They literally know very little about me even though we are very close. Which isn't very normal - I don't assume so anyway.