I was thinking about email and my t today. To be clear, my t has no issues with how much I email or anything, but I was thinking about the "why" behind the emails I send her. Sometimes, they are true crisis emails, sometimes, questions, sometimes just to check in....

I think I'm afraid sometimes she will forget about me. I think that if an email from me pops up, it in a way forces her to think about me, at least for the amount of time it takes to read the email or to respond. I feel really yucky about it, because that feel manipulative to me on my part, and I don't want to be that way. I think I just don't want to be forgotten. I want her to think about me outside of session.

I feel so yuck wanting that. Needing that from her. I don't want to want or need that, yet I do.

Can anyone relate?

Doogie