wow, ((((((( moonrise ))))))) me too but I could never get those words out.
I guess I wish I could make her understand how truly ALIEN this whole process is to me. We have touched on it, but it's so hard to convey. Besides, there's nothing she can do about it.

I feel like I have to change gears going in there & coming out again; like I am translating everyting that comes in from her, and goes out to her into a strange and new language that I halt and stumble in; sometimes between sessions i wonder if I represent myself truthfully in there (but I really work at that, and my finding my mother's papers recently proved to me with a shock that I am telling her the truth)...

Oh never mind. Too many words to get it out sensibly. sorry