@ evening Yea sometimes I feel the same way about relationships. Im tryin to improve myself to be a better person and 2 increase my chances to establish and maintain a successful relationship. Ive been single for a ill minute, and Ive never fell in love with any of the females in my past relationships. I hunger for a good relationship with a female, but my situation prevents me from doing so. I havent given up yet, and I know theres someone 4 everybody. It truly sux to be mentally ill, but I have to keep on fighting, or else everything that ive fought 4 would be in vain... Do you actually want a relationship? Or do see it as a lost cause?