I'm leaving for the night - baseball, outside, thank God - but I just wanted to say I talked to T on the phone. He calmed things down inside a little bit and then he read the list of Now words to me twice. I asked "are they true?" and he said "they are" and I asked "for ALL of my parts?" and he said "yes, for sure". And I felt things quiet down. He said that after he hung up, he was going to leave me a message with the Now list so I can listen to it, and he did, and I listened.

I have to believe I'm going to be okay. My adult self can look around and see that everything is fine here and now....but it doesn't feel like that inside.

I'm so grateful that I'm going to sit under the big sky for a few hours. That's what I need.