[color=red]yeah i suppose i was obsessed up to a point.the only problem is that there are alot of things which still remind me of her(i wish i could just forget all about her).i think of her up to about a dozen times per day.

as for this "thinking" that im going through..ive always thought of it as what happens to convicts when they are in solitary confinement for months at a time.

theres just this void in my head..it seems as if i cant blank out.for example when i wasnt thinking of her i would think what was happening to me over and over again.then i always used to think i was in a depression.then through positive thinking i forced my way out of the depression.it just felt like there was an emptiness in my mind since i couldnt get my mind onto the things i was busy with.

ive spoken with my parents..and they have said its just a normal part of growing up.when i accepted what they said..i got worse.but ever since i wrote my post here...ive refused to believe that i would be like this till the end of my days..and ive been alot more happy and joyeous.

i think im getting better little by little,and i think the worst is behind me.i just get really frustrated sometimes of having the same awful memories over and over again.

thanks for the support.