and not in a good way. he just had his therapy appt, and his therapist told me that nighttime is the worst for him, that's when he worries the most, when he's scared the most, when his anxiety is highest. Just like me. And so, at night, he picks his legs until they bleed. His legs look awful, scars and scabs all over. I think that counts as SI. Just like me. And she told me that my son (who has anger issues) knows the proper coping techniques, but that his emotions get so overwhelming that he just blows up. Just like me, just that I don't get angry, I cut.

I was crying on the way home. What have I done to my child??? Maybe I should not have had any kids. My son is going to end up just like me. I feel absolutely horrible. and that's making things so much worse. like i don't feel bad enough already. one more thing to stress about.