Hi kdd..I'm with Innerzone, sending you hugs from really close by. You've probably thought of this, but a lot of how you're feeling could be caused in part by all the rain we've had. When the sun came out today, I was in nirvana. And moving here can be a fresh start. Don't let your job define you or be the thing that drags you down. You have a contract to honor and when it's done, you have the choice to do something else. It's a temporary inconvenience, don't you see? It's tough being away from the support system you've always had, but I bet you could find a support group or some kind of social group where you can build a new support system - then you'll have two. Stay strong.