I've struggled with depression, anxiety, and ADD all my life. I'm in my mid-fifties, and have never been married. I've had various relationships with men here and there, none lasting more than 2 or 3 years. For the majority of my life, I've been alone, and have always hated it. I still want to meet someone, but I haven't even made an effort in over 10 years. I'm drawn to men who function well, and are relatively healthy, but I'm also intimidated by them, and think that they would not be interested in a woman who's so fearful and insecure. At the same time, I can look pretty "normal" from the outside. I feel terribly stigmatized for being on disability, though I do a very little bit of professional contract work for a court. I can be kind, interesting, but I'm introverted. Why must it be so difficult to meet eligible, like-minded men? My scarcity mentality doesn't help, I'm sure. In very small, slow ways, I'm working on it.