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Originally Posted by Hunny
It is a form of denial for us or secret keeping but really she is very good at being an average person. How could we do without her?
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yes. exactly.
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Originally Posted by Hunny
I find this really hard to type since she could be typing this for herself.
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I felt the same way typing my post!
thank you, hunny and amandalouise. I do appreciate her innate ability to just be normal and sometimes feel a bit envious. I want so badly so much of the time to just be a normal functioning person who is capable of dealing with my life and my responsibilities. but the fact is, I'm just NOT. so I'm thankful for her. but it is so confusing to have this feeling of 'I'm just fine. I need to let go of this fantasy world full of nonsense and just get on with life' one minute and then feel like a sniffling baby the next. it really screws with my sense of reality and knowing what's true and what's not.
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trying to live life in spite of depression, dissociation, and PTSD.
member of a club that no one wants to join...