I am wondering if i should go in to be tested for bipolar, and from what i read i belive i do have it, and it seems to explain how i have been feeling completly lost. I was just hoping maybe i could recieve some input from ppl in this situation.

family: my mother was diagnosed with bipolar @ age 13. Seeing as she is on a 24 year alcoholic binge, & in and out of my life, (out for the moment) i have no contact to ask her about her symptoms.

Me: I am 24, with 2 kids, been with their dad for 6 years, not married

Depression symptoms: (how i currently feel)
* no drive to exercise like i used to, i am always either working out 100% or not at all (in general i have a everything or nothing outlook to what i do in life)
* i feel lost like i have no purpose to what i am doing in life, i feel guilty for not being further in life (not being in college, not have a new car, house).
* I have to make a list of normal tasks i am supposed to do during the day (seems to make me feel like i have to get them done, and the list helps me stay focused)
* i never feel like i get enough done during the day b/c i wake up from 8 hrs of sleep, still tired, sleep another 3 then start my day.
* i have no desire for close relationships with anyone (other than my children) and have no sexual desire
*i take 1000 + mg of caffeine to get motivates (stay motivated) throughout the day (caffeine pills and coffe/energy drinks)
*i'll feel like i have to do something drastic to change my long period of feeling blue, like all of a sudden cutting my hair (and in my mind i feel like that will suddenly make me feel the happiness i used to) fyi: it DOESNT, i just automatically regret the new crazy short hair.
* i will suddenly quit my current job b/c "this must be why i am depressed" but it only makes me feel worse that i dnt have any $$ to spend

Mania symptoms (which i abbbsssoolutly love )
*i feel like i can do anything i put my mind to, that the possibilites to life r endless
*feeling that ppl who need normal amounts of sleep are just lazy ppl
* i feel better than everyone, and love the confidence i have, like everyone wants to be me
* i have enormous amounts of energy (still take all my caffeine) and am actually productive with it, clean whole house, exercise for an hour, start sweeping the sidewalk b/c everything should be clean
* i live with my kids father, but start what i call, mini-outside relationships with other guys b/c i feel addicted to the attention, having an ongoing relationship with 5 guys through work/txt and truly have feelings for all of them
* on my last mania period i was completly convinced i was a sex addicted and needed help
*i make spur of the moment decisions, like big ones, like moving to another state, quiting my job but not thinking of where my $ will come from, suddenly trying to join the military but change my mind just as sudden, wanting another baby then suddenly thinking i was crazy to think that, and when i decide on something i am completly convinced that decision will make me the happiest person in the world and have the strongest feelings for it, until all of a sudden having extreem feelings not to do it.
.....there are so many more things i could add but i hope this helps determine if i should go see if i need help. i am currently in the depression stage with bouts of happiness here and there, but i am dying to get back into my mania b/c i absolutly love the feeling, i am scared i'll never have that extreem happiness again if i take meds

thank u for any suggestions & help