I am also about to have to go back to work and I am terrified. I have been out since Jan. 7 that day I attempted suicide, had surgery, and was in the hospital for weeks recovering. My problem is that no one knew I have any mental health issues, I hide it very well in my professional life, but my personal life is a mess. That in itself is very hard and stressfull. Back in August I was raped and only my Front office Manager and the General Manager knew about it but I felt like everyone that came in or walked by the front desk could tell just by looking at me that something was wrong and that I had been damaged in some way. There were days my anxiety and depression was so bad I could not make it thru a shift. I missed a lot of work during that time. Now I have those feelings coming back. I know when I go back to work people are going to ask where have I been and what happened. I don't know how to respond. I am lucky that my bosses are great and I work with great people. But I am scared about letting my crazy out, I don't want anyone to know that I'm bi-polar and suffer from major depression, PTSD, and have terrible anxiety. I am considering not even going back to the same place, maybe I should just find something new and start over then i won't have to deal with it all. I work at the front and am the face people see when they walk in, I am always supposed to have a smile on my face and be happy and cheerful, but how can I do this when I am so afraid they now know what is wrong with me, what if I can't hide it anymore. I have all the same feelings coming back like I did after the rape which is now giving me flashbacks of that ordeal. I guess the only positive thing is that I did make it thru and continued to work after the rape, with med changes and therapy every week, hopefully I can make it thru this also. I hope you can to, I know it's scary and i wish you the best.