Our T is gone for the week. Still accessible in emergency though. But we hae been doing some real introspective work this past few days and it is really scary to be becoming aware of things that have been so long out of reach. I am blocking and dissociating much right now. Trying to journal but parts are blocking the process. It is very weird to be hearing things and then when I go to write what I've heard, I can't remember and what I hear is turned to jibberish...
And someone has been talking to H about things that are important to know and it is like water through my fingers. Here for a split second and gone that fast, just out of reach again.
Need support please as I try to get some grip on something solid...feels very shaky.