Hey Cedar S. Thanks for the follow up. And yes I did get a referral. My bf and I feel much better that I will be seeing a psychiatrist. But yesterday, after the doctor's appointment I flipped out at him because I was feeling he was not taking it seriously. When I got home we talked...and he is taking this more seriously than I am. Me flipping out made me realize I need therapy even more. I was really sad at nightt and could not sleep. my bf kept trying to comfort me and help me fall asleep. I kept telling him I am not fit to be a gf and that I hurt him all the time...ande I can't see him hurting like this....he said that it is not true...that I am fit to be his gf and that he loves me...I still feel bad about how I flipped out at him. Valentines Day...I went through the whole day without having getting angry or upset....I think that is one day where I could go through wihtout having a hissy fit. I tried to be so good after that...but then I just crashed and burned yesterday...I feel like I intentinally try to make things that are good in my life bad...I destroy things that are good...this is also why I need therapy.

My bf agreed to going to a relationship counsellor.