I have found in the last couple of days that I have stopped feeling as depressed. Instead the emptiness that I have been feeling is replaced with a cold yet burning rage.

I've never ever been an angry person. I would get mad but it could never last more than five minutes. I have never known rage or hate.

After some issues at work, it seems something has been triggered. I feel almost like a crack has appeared in the person I once was. Where I once was all smiles, compassion, trust and love (told to me by others not my own inferrence) I now am a seething mass of bitterness, anger, and at my best, cynical wit. At best I tolerate people, but I usually despise them.

I am currently at the point where you would not want me to be the person who has to make the choice whether or not to push the button.

I'd push the button.