Yesterday I told T I dint even want to begin to talk about this feeling I've always had because it feels to impossible to put words too, and I closed my mouth. T then said do you fear that no one can help you with it? be there with you with it? I nodded yes,.

then she said, has the words we;ve been using today helped soothe that feeling? I nodded yes, they had, its amazing how just talking about feelings helps put perspective to them, helps you manage them, the feeling of this uncontrollable crying and screaming inside suddenly became something I could manage. I felt so aware of the baby me inside of me crying and in panic that no one was going to pick her up, which no one much did when I was a baby. I was kinda of shocked to see just how much we do still carry this unresolved feelings inside of us and by just not talking about them doesn't make them go away, this feeling has been with me constantly, plays out sometimes when I'm driving and go into that dream or should I say nightmare state and suddenly want to run people over, shoot them and I just thought this was anger that I carried, I didn't see as the anger stemming from that baby that had cried and cried and no one heard it.

Once The session was over, I felt this peace inside, I felt very visual as if I was seeing the baby inside of me crying and raging and once was in charge, to me being able to pick it up and soothe it, now if I feel that anger coming on I know what its cause is and can manage it!