lavieenrose,

I am sorry that you're having a tough time. I can relate to the very low self-esteem.

My low self-esteem seems to be embedded within me. Turning my attitude around isn't an overnight task. But it is something that I must work hard to overcome. Some days are better than others ~ and I try to simply leave it at that. (Rather than obsessing about why.)

I really have to push myself to post on those dark days, for myself. I want so badly to erase it all ~ rather than be viewed poorly. I am such a chicken. You have great strength, for not giving in to the fear. Good for you! Kudos lavieenrose!!