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Hey guys,
OK I wrote a post earlier on being a recluse and if anyone else had been told this or are a recluse for one reason or another.
Now I have had a conversation with my friend and she has said I push people away and isolate myself and she doesn't understand why. My other friend said I don't answer my phone if people call I only answer text messages.
So they all want to know why I don't socialise, communicate what is wrong with me etc etc.... I don't know either that's the problem. I really don't know. I have thought about it and I have no idea.
I know I don't have any motivation, no energy, and yes I do want bed days. They know I have went into depression and have asked I keep them all up to date about what is going on with me.
Tonight my friend and I were texting and she asked if I was ok? I said I was and not to worry. She said she does worry though and she is worried about me at the moment. I have said I am fine at the moment and not to worry. She has made me promise her I will tell her EVERYTHING... good or bad.
Does anyone else tend to push people away?
I was speaking to my Sister and she said I tell my family nothing either and that I keep myself to myself most of the time.... I live with my folks and sister btw
I have hurt myself and thought of "getting away" but not full blown and my friends don't know and I don't know if I will tell them as I want them to just be ok with me not worrying.... I know its a contradictory from the above but I just don't want to scare anyone away if that makes sense??
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