The moodchart really helps... I'm keeping one on medtracker too, and it opened my eyes to how wibbly wobbly my moods actually are.
When I was first diagnosed I was really upset, because I was afraid I was always going to be seen as "mad", but fortunately I've got over that fear. For one thing, nobody needs to know unless you want them too, for another thing, you're the exact same person you've always been... only now you know a bit more about how your brain works, and you can get the help you need.
I remember thinking it was one of the worst days of my life when I saw the psychiatrists letter referring me to an emergency mental health team. Just the word (in my case schizoaffective) seemed like a slap in the face. But in retrospect, that was a turning point. From that letter on things have improved, because they've targetted help for me in the areas that I needed, and I now really feel like my real self again... that girl I'd almost forgotten over the last twenty years.
If your doctor's figuring out how you tick, that's a good thing. Take comfort in the fact that things will get better the more you know about yourself. In the end, it won't be that bad.
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