Needles. Yes, lovely things aren't they? 2008 was the first year I got a shot since I had broken my finger when I was about four years old and I don't rememeber feeling it when I broke my finger. I remember crying my eyes out, screaming my head off, flailing, but I don't remember the shot. That was what all my booster shots and needle appointments were like as a child. I was wrestled, held by either both my parents or my mother and another doctor while another gave me the shot. Screaming, crying, flailing, the whole shebang.

In 2008 I was too old for crying and screaming and too big to be wrestled still. I took my shots calmly without saying anything, sure that my childish phobias were gone (where ever they came from I have no idea). I was nervous, but no where near on the verge of tears. I had the shot without a fuss, the doctor threw it out, and wrote down the information.

Then I started feeling weird. My body felt hot and cold at the same time, black spots started showing up around my eyes. I felt light headed and nasuous. My Dad seen something was wrong, noted how I was going pale, and the doctor didn't know what was happening. My Dad made me get up, but I felt weak and could hardly feel my legs. He told me to follow him, but by then I couldn't see at all. I was literally blind. He told me to follow his voice while he ran to the bathroom to get me a glass of water, but I was now crying because his voice seemed so far away. I couldn't feel my legs, see the floor and could barely hear a thing when my Dad grabbed my arm, tilted back my head and forced me to drink the ice cold water. When he did suddenly I could hear again, my vision returned and I was alright; a little shaken, but alright.

About a year later the same thing happened again, but I was ready for it, and got to the foutain before my vision went out completely.

When I go to the doctors and I warn them about this, they stare at me like they haven't a clue what was wrong. My Dad used to suspect I had worked myself up too much, but I would say I hadn't. I felt calm, calm as one could be, and it only started happening about a minute after the shot. He now suspects my body goes into something like "shock" afterwards, but I haven't a clue and neither do any of the doctors I've spoken to at random check ups.

I'm asking now, wondering if anybody has gone through the same thing, because in the next two weeks I have to get caught up on my shots before I can go back to school. I'm afraid this is going to happen again. It's scary, scarier than getting a virus pumped into your blood, and would like to know a way to prevent it all together, intead of stopping it in the middle.