Wow Helga what a rough time you've been through...so much happened at once for you. I'm glad you made it through safely. Sorry to hear about the new SI, that is one of the reasons I went to the psych ward of a hospital as well. I hope you have a t or someone to talk to...they will help alot, I agree with pat and bunny. Feel free to post more if you are able, we are here to listen and support you as much as we can.

All the best

--BP