From as early as I remember I craved beer, I use to beg my dad to leave me a dreg of his. I use to hang around outside pubs just smelling the beer. I did become an alcoholic, and did become addicted to pain medication, had a need to just swallow pills, fantized about pills and wonder if that was because the only time I had my adoptive mothers attention was when I was ill and she gave me a pill, perhaps in my head I equated pills as taking care of myself. I'm not sure why the obsession with beer from a very young age, lots of reasons for that, birth mother an alcoholic so proberbly that set me up or perhaps I associated drinking with company and I always felt so lonely? But I dont think we will ever know exactly, I just know now that pills and booze are no good for me and stay away.