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Old Feb 19, 2011, 04:27 AM
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Originally Posted by TheMisunderstoodOne View Post
@ evening Yea sometimes I feel the same way about relationships. Im tryin to improve myself to be a better person and 2 increase my chances to establish and maintain a successful relationship. Ive been single for a ill minute, and Ive never fell in love with any of the females in my past relationships. I hunger for a good relationship with a female, but my situation prevents me from doing so. I havent given up yet, and I know theres someone 4 everybody. It truly sux to be mentally ill, but I have to keep on fighting, or else everything that ive fought 4 would be in vain... Do you actually want a relationship? Or do see it as a lost cause?
Deep inside I do, I'll rarely admit that to people though. I tend to lie and tell people that I have had relationships, and I'm not remotely interested in one now, both of which are big old porkie pies. I have too many trust issues for a relationship and intimacy disgusts and terrifies me. So I gave up on the hope of it ever happening a long time ago. There's no point wasting my time searching, you know?