CSC... I'm so sorry that you've got to go through this. But you're stronger than you think, much stronger than you think. You're still standing, despite it all. You're worthy, whatever this man made you think, you're courageous (enough to face these issues in therapy) and you're a good and loving mother.

Do you have positive affirmations? You can deprogramme your negative thoughts - recognise that your bad feelings are lies, and just keep on going. We're proud of you.