Not just me then...I slept for 5 hrs, really heavy but not deep at all, I thought I got sleep paralysis, which has happened before on anti-ps. Then I was wide awake for a couple of hours with a bad headache, and then I'm not sure what heppened - fell asleep again? passed out? And I think that I was dreaming that I was hallucinating, I was in such a state I'm not sure if I was awake or not. And that I was shouting at the people I was seeing - two friends of mine. They wouldn't move though and I was just shouting, 'I know you're not really there but you may as well talk to me!' 'You freak me out, come closer and just talk, I don't care if you're real or not'
and I'd open and close my eyes and when I'd have the strenght to take a proper look they would have come closer but I wouldn't see them moving, just ever so slightly and then I just wanted them to go away
and kept shouting but in a whisper (not sure how that worked) go away go away, leave me alone, I want to wake up
and I was thinking that I knew it was a dream because when I looked at sth, looked away, and then looked back at it, it hadn't remained exactly the same
and then I thought people were walking through the flat
I was feeling my throat sore from shouting but I'm not sure if I was actually shouting or not, and my flatmate is abroad..
and the most disturbing bit......
along with the 'friends'
there was a figure I didn't recognise
and I couldn't see, man or woman
but I could sort of 'read' or just 'know' their intentions....
...that were to rape me
and I was shouting
you can't do that
you have no substance
you're a hallucination
and then I'd feel someone slithering under the blanket from the other end of the sofa
and started feeling their way around
and I was trying to shout but couldn't
and then it was all a swirl
and I thought people were walking all around me again - probably people moving on other floors in reality...
And I don't remember properly waking up, the next thing I recollect with clarity is eating porridge, watching FRIENDS and getting in a chatroom to distract myself....

Sorry for the lenght of this, I hadn't realised how much I wanted to get it out......I got a bit addicted to valium last year, I had it once again on Tuesday but no more left in my hands, thank God...