Hey, you are a REAL parent and a real person. Being bipolar is not who you are. I have a hard time of letting go of the same old lament too. I'm sorry you're not feeling well. I don' t really know what to tell you except to accept yourself as you are and try to make yourself happy. Be grateful for the people in your life who love and care about you. When I am depressed I tend to forget that I am an important person to a lot of people. You are too. Hope you feel better soon.