Just when I take a step forward to a healthy me....I get knocked down further then where I started.
I ask myself WHY? do I keep going? Why do I think things will every get better?
I am angry. I get so angry that I want to start being destructive in any possible way I can find.
That is the fun part of being borderline I guess....there is no gray and right now I am having a pitch black mind f*cking that is totally wreaking havoc on my will to live.

Not that anyone wants to hear the ramblings of a lunatic...so let me hush up!