Ok, I really don't know how to say this and I am unsure if I am being a total freak of nature or if I am being genuine. If anyone can shed some light on this issue I would be grateful thank you!!

I am 26 and I have never had sex. I have came close a few times but I have never actually done anything. I had my first boyfriend at 12 and we went out for 2 years. Then I had my next boyfriend 10 years later when I was 24. I went out with him for 1 month. We never even came close to having sex despite sleeping in the same bed. I went out with another guy for also 1 month when I was 25 and although we shared a bed again we never did anything. Then I had another boyfriend when I was 25 and he lasted 2 and a bit weeks. My last relationship was where I went more in depth in the sense of sex and fantasies and touching.

I never had any interested in guys until I got my 1st adult relationship at 24. Now I don't want it. However when I am manic all I can think about is sex and wanting to really get a boyfriend. When I think of a guy's penis it makes me feel sick. I don't know why. Is this normal? I don't think it is.

I am not into girls.... I know that.

I have in the past especially when I was at school liked it when older females "mothered" me... I don't know why!! I have always gotten on better with older women and I like being in their company and thinking what it would be like to be their daughter. But I have never wanted to kiss or touch a woman.

So I am rather confused as to what I am or what I am doing... Am I just being a complete freak or is there somethign wrong with me??

As I said any answers would be appreciated!!