Hi. I am new here so am not completely sure what your situation is with your T, but I wanted to say that I care, and I am so sorry that you are hurting.

UGH! I so get the feeling horrible thing....I so get the pain. I can hear that you are hurting. I am certain that you are NOT horrible, but I understand being there and feeling it as truth.

Has your T actually said that she/he doesn't want to work with you, or is this your interpretation of something that has occurred? I know that I have had several instances where I was SURE that my T hated my guts, but in reality this was just me reading into things in the negative way that I tend to do because of my own feelings about myself. Could this be what is going on?