hey bp... I hope that you're feeling better today,.... sorry if I wasn't much of a help but I tried! rapunzel pretty much said a lot of the things I was trying to get across to you... I think you made the right decision in the end... only you know what's best and if you're not able to make that decision then the best thing you can do is surround yourself w/ someone who can help you stay safe...... I really do hope you're better.