LMo,

Thanks

I just made an appointment today for the 26th of January. I also put myself on the cancellation waiting list, to see if I can get in sooner.

I don't want to wallow in sadness anymore. I don't like that part of myself, I don't feel like it helps me. I keep feeling like I have to go back to these terrible, negative emotions in order to discover *something*, but it's just a terrible cycle. I've been studying Buddhism for a while, and lately some of its more important parts have been making a lot more sense to me. I'm trying to use it to improve my life, and the lives of others.

I don't want to feel dependent on my girlfriend, but I don't want to lose her. She's great; she's a really fun, good, interesting person. She has her issues too, though. But I have too much fear.. fear of expressing my needs, and of telling her about some of my darker hours (like now). Do you have any ideas about what to do about that? I don't want to hide things, but I don't want to gush out indulgent negative thoughts that I might not really agree with. (see? there I go again )