Thanks TheMisunderstoodOne, yes ur advice is very helpful. Yes being real is very important. I just worry that Im too real to the point of just being really blunt and my bf doesn`t like that. Since my bf acts really selfish in a nice way it makes things hard for me. If he was mean it would make my decision so much easier. So i tend to feel guilty for no good reason. Anyway, I might just write a few notes on what i want to say so i can stay on track. Plus he will also being coming off his meds by doctor`s orders because the doc has been saying he has mild sz since day 1, I have also vented about that in other posts for the last few months. And Breaking up will be very important for me if he goes back to his state before he started treatment or even worst. I have no idea why a doc would take someone off meds with sz of any severity. On his meds he`s been able to attend school and work at his job and be social a little being able to do those things are so important to help his over all personal growth. And the fact he`s not afraid of people is a big deal for him that allows him to function in a very efficient productive manner. The way I see it the meds are for all of us who love him: me and his family we love being able to see him succeed. But only temporary medication for a few years was the plan when he first started treatment and i knew but i never did research about sz had no clue what the scientific definition of it was back then because i thought him and his doc could take care of it fine without me. I feel so dumb for approaching it like that and not researching. so yeah either way if i stay or go there might be problems and im worried.