Well, those are very reasonable fears to have (way to go LMo -- feed his fears! Nice!). I would hold off on expressing those things until you see a therapist. Or, before you express your fears to her, think of what kind of reaction you're hoping to get, and what kind of reaction you're likely to get. If those two don't match up, then hold off.

I went back through your other posts and read about your Adderal prescription. Not that drugs are "The Answer", but there is something to be said for how antidepressants can pull you out from a rut while you retrain your brain (via therapy) to stop the negative thinking patterns. It takes a while -- my husband's psychiatrist said that the current research is that it takes 9 months to change negative thinking patterns. So, it would stand to reason that if you start therapy now, then you can expect that 9 months from now you'll have made significant progress. However, I would also talk to your pdoc.

tc,
LMo