I have never cut myself before, I have hit myself during nervous breakdowns, I have abused sleep aids before, a lot.
Yesterday I found out that plucking hairs is a way to cope with issues. So just now I tried it, plucking the tiny hairs on my upper lip. I did it cause I am feeling at the bottom of the pit now, I just got rejected again today, I have been rejected and bullied so much over the last few days more than I have ever in my life. I hate myself, I can't even look in the mirror at my full reflection, I just cant.
So, I have one of those small compact mirrors to look at my upper lip and I plucked a few hairs, suprisingly it helped a little with my depressed feeling, the stinging feeling and all. I have never plucked cause I was so depressed, abuse the sleep aids maybe, but never this. I am new to this. I just don't know anymore how to deal with this pain of self hate that I am feeling
I feel so worthless, I just had to find a way out, a way to deal with the self hate that I am feeling. I feel that I am on this earth to be a reject, maybe plucking is the answer to this hurt, I don't know, I just don't know anymore